Silent Tears

This Saturday, Max's soccer game was canceled because of weather. We did not find out this was the case until we arrived at the soccer field and it was deserted. We explained to Max what was going on, and he did not understand why a thunderstorm in the morning is reason to cancel the best sport ever. I can't blame him because it wasn't raining anymore. It was also very clear that he was very disappointed. He became quiet after that and after about 5 minutes Joey and I looked in the backseat to see our dear Max with huge, hot and silent tears streaming down his face.

Today I received an email saying that the school I was potentially going to be teaching at, did not receive the grant it needed to offer the class I was probably going to teach. It feels like I have huge hot silent tears streaming down my heart. This job seemed ideal. It would have been in the evenings, it would have paid well, and it would have been a nice outlet for me. With Joey's job situation the way it is, an extra income would have been very helpful.

So now we are back to square one. I am disappointed, but there has been something I have learned during this economic recession. And that is, God is God regardless of the economy. I have seen God provide over and above for us in the last few months.

Ann Voskamp (blogger at aholyexperience.com) said not too long ago, that instead of worrying we should wonder at how God is going to provide.

The teaching job did not work out. So now I wonder what God has in store for us.

I'll let you know.



(Btw, the baby seen in the picture is William and the cry was not silent.)